Tuesday, 18 May 2010

i don't know what i want. that's the problem i've decided. and i'm willing to hurt anyone on my way to finding what it is that i want. i tell myself i don't believe in love, but then i look at happy couples and definitely wish i was them. i also tell myself that i want to be an actress, but i really don't think i have any where near enough talent to get far at all. i'm going to fail all my AS's, that's a given. uhhhh i just wish i didn't have to make things so complicated for myself.

i am in such a weird mood tonight, i'm going to put this song on repeat and lay on my floor. film studies can wait.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Im going to let you into a little secret, youre not the only one who feels that way. I remember my ASs, shit times, but all it takes is a little time and then its all over. Want some advice from someone who had to repeat his?...a bit of work saves you a lot of time. With regards your actress aspirations, you CAN do whatever you like! It just takes believing in yourself. Sorry to sound like a preacher, but ive been in a very similar situation and I wish someone had told me something. Just wish you all the best in searching the infinite abyss and finding exactly what you want. (even if you dont think you know yet!)