none of you read this so here's a rant. i literally feel sick with pain. and it fucking frustrates me that people think that i'm in the wrong yet don't have the nerve to say it to my face. yes, i understand if you think what i'm doing is wrong but forgive me if i'm just trying to be myself. i cannot please everyone. so if any of you have any smarter ideas, please, throw them my way because i'm obviously fucking up big time if you all feel it's okay to talk about me so much behind my back.
i am so angry, so embarrassed, so guilty and so fucking lonely. i thought i'd be making myself happier by taking that action when all it has done is rip my fucking life apart.
this will be deleted in due course but i have no one to talk to about this who genuinely cares, so i'm blogging it.